double posting

i'm currently stressing.

i wish i could pack a suitcase with the bare minimum amount of clothing.

i wish i could be confident that i'm bringing the right amount of things to wear.

but i can't.

never have been able to, never will.

i pack everything.

what if i'm cold? what if i don't feel cute in this outfit that i always feel cute in? what if i am not in the mood for this shirt? what if it rains, even though it's supposed to be ninety degrees all week?

what if my flip-flop breaks?


right now i'm packing for my favorite, annual california trip.
it's ten days.
and i've been packing for ten hours.

i have taken all my clothes out of my packed suitcase
 like seven times,

telling myself i'd re-pack with less.

somehow i always ended up packing more than i had the time before.

it's not easy to just "pack light."

the sad thing is,

i guarantee you i will only wear like three of the things i packed.
that's how it always turns out.

but you just never know,

do you

yours truly,

jasmine