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i feel awkward.

like...these last four hours have been so weird.

i'm really not an awkward person

most of the time.

but tonight,

i'm just feeling ever so awkward.

i just feel so awkward.

do you ever feel so helpless

in weird situations

and there's nothing you can do about it

but feel awkward??

that's how i feel.

i got locked out of my apartment

and sat outside the door

knocking

over and over and over

like i was homeless

or crazy.

i was kind of both.

but mainly i just felt awkward.

not being able to get into my own place.

so then i went over to watch glee

with my friends

and happened to see my boy FRIEND

and girl FRIEND

being more than FRIENDS.

and they saw me seeing them

and i felt

awkward.

and i made the situation ten times more awkward than it

needed to be.

but i just felt so freaking awkward.

and now i'm sitting in brynne's room

drinking chocolate milk

feeling awkward as i write all of this

hahahhahahahhahhh

i love being awkward.

brynne let me borrow her sweats.

and they have a hole in the butt.

i was unaware of this.

but she just told me.

now i feel awkward that i was with other people.

and this video

portrays how awkward we really are.