it happens for a reason.

i

love

my

country

music.

i especially love the song

"This"

by Darius Rucker.

i've been obsessed for quite some time,

but i've really been thinking about the lyrics.
my favorite part of the song says:

"Like the girl that I loved in high school
Who said she could do better
Or the college I wanted to go to
Till I got that letter
All the fights and the tears and the heartache
I thought I'd never get through
And the moment I almost gave up
All led me here to you
I didn't understand it way back when
But sittin' here right now
It all makes perfect sense

Oh I cried when my momma passed away
And now I got an angel
Looking out for me today
So nothing's a mistake
Every stoplight I didn't make
Every chance I did or I didn't take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
Everything I knew but I didn't know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this"

that's how i feel.

i know i'm young.

so very young.

but i've had my fair share of bumpy roads.

disappointments.

let-downs.

changes of plans.

plans i assumed wouldn't ever change.

i've come to realize nothing is subject to staying the same.

but that's what i've come to love.

i love that everything that happens in my life happens for a reason.

all the times i've been hysterical in my bed

or car

sobbing

because plans were changing.

things weren't going the way i wanted.

i can look back on all those times and realize that i'm glad it happened.

i'm so happy to be

here

in THIS place

and i wouldn't be here if it weren't for everything else that's happened in my life thus far.

it led me here to this.