brain overflow

i'm back from paradise.

goodness, i love

LAGUNA BEACH.



i want to go back.

it was a fabulous trip.

here are some of the things that have been on my mind

(in no apparent order)

enjoy.

too bad cafe rio is closed.

i cried in HP7 part 2. it's fine.

yes i'm a gleek.

for those of you who aren't....

this is CAMERON

from the "glee project"

he's dorky

but totally sexy.

i love him... and he left tonight.

i decided Thailand is the place i want to do a study abroad.

so beautiful.

cheers.

xoxo

boys will be boys.

a heart is not a play thing

a heart is not a toy

but if you want it broken,

Just give it to a boy.

Boys they like to play with things

To see what makes them run,

But when it comes to kissing,

They do it just for fun.

Boys never give their hearts away

They play us girls for fools,

They wait untill we give our hearts

And then they play it cool.

You will wonder where he is at night

You will wonder if hes true,

One moment you will be happy,

One moment you will be blue.

If you get a chance to see him

Your heart begins to dance

Your life revolves around him,

Theres nothing like romance.

And then it starts to happen,

You worry day and night

You see, my friend, you're losing him

It never turns out right.

Boys are great, though immature

The price you pay is high,

He may seem sweet and gorgeous

But remember, hes a guy.

Don't fall in love with just a boy

That takes alot of nerve.

You see, my friend, you need a man

To get what you deserve.

So when you think that you're in love,

Be careful if you can

Before you give your heart away

Make sure that he's a man.

-author unknown

it happens for a reason.

i

love

my

country

music.

i especially love the song

"This"

by Darius Rucker.

i've been obsessed for quite some time,

but i've really been thinking about the lyrics.
my favorite part of the song says:

"Like the girl that I loved in high school
Who said she could do better
Or the college I wanted to go to
Till I got that letter
All the fights and the tears and the heartache
I thought I'd never get through
And the moment I almost gave up
All led me here to you
I didn't understand it way back when
But sittin' here right now
It all makes perfect sense

Oh I cried when my momma passed away
And now I got an angel
Looking out for me today
So nothing's a mistake
Every stoplight I didn't make
Every chance I did or I didn't take
All the nights I went too far
All the girls that broke my heart
All the doors that I had to close
Everything I knew but I didn't know
Thank God for all I missed
Cause it led me here to this"

that's how i feel.

i know i'm young.

so very young.

but i've had my fair share of bumpy roads.

disappointments.

let-downs.

changes of plans.

plans i assumed wouldn't ever change.

i've come to realize nothing is subject to staying the same.

but that's what i've come to love.

i love that everything that happens in my life happens for a reason.

all the times i've been hysterical in my bed

or car

sobbing

because plans were changing.

things weren't going the way i wanted.

i can look back on all those times and realize that i'm glad it happened.

i'm so happy to be

here

in THIS place

and i wouldn't be here if it weren't for everything else that's happened in my life thus far.

it led me here to this.

well poop

isn't it amazing what paper can do?

money money money

it's crazy to think that money buys us whatever we want

even though we have to work for it.

working for it is the hard part.

don't kill me.

i watched this for the first time tonight.

i'm obsessed.

but let me tell you

that i don't think i'll ever be able to walk around campus alone.

i now have a fear of being murdered at school.

just what i need.

also.

random question of the day:

do you ever look at someone and wonder what goes on in their mind?

i do.

i really love life.

i love every little thing about it.

there is so much

beauty.

so many people that i learn from.

people that make me

better.

i heard a quote once that has stuck with me.

i don't know it word-for-word but it is something along the lines of this:

"surround yourself with people who are better than you,

smarter than you,

more accomplished than you.

being around them will naturally lift you

up."

i love that.

it's so true.

i learn so much from people every day.

regardless of whether someone is a successful businessman or

lawyer

computer wiz

..and so on...

everyone has characteristics and traits that i can learn from.

i love being around people who are far more brilliant than i could ever dream of being.

i love being with people who have a larger vocabulary than i do.

or people with exceptional cooking skills.

especially people who possess more wisdom than myself.

i love it because i take bits and pieces of them with me.

i look at people and think,

"wow. i want to be more like that."

so i take them with me.

i think people have naturally lifted me up.

i continue to learn from others.

daily.

i learn from the conversationalist at Target when i'm checking out.

or the person who i cut off while driving that doesn't give me the

"crusty"

as we make eye contact.

i hope to be a person that teaches someone.

what a wonderful thing.

like mother, like daughter?

people fascinate me.

we're wonderful creatures, really.

everyone is so incredibly different.

we all have different opinions, goals, ideas, and ways we've been brought up.

there is no right or wrong, really.

you can't look at someone and tell them they're wrong, and you're right.

but sometimes i want to.

i'm very opinionated.

but i'm also very open-minded,

at least i like to believe i am.

i guess i don't really know what i'm trying to say.

i know what i'm thinking, but i don't always know the words to say.

i'll try.

i had a conversation that won't leave my head.

someone said to me, "oh they've had a horrible life."

(referencing to a person i know)

it really bothered me.

i don't think you can look at someone and decide they've had a horrible life.

sometimes people have horrible circumstances,

but that doesn't mean they're life has been horrible as a result.

i know i don't know everything.

there are so many things i've yet to figure out.

but i do know what i know

and what i feel.

you CAN NOT judge someone before you know them.

[[[ judgemental ]]]]]]

something i think everyone can work on in some way or another.

we all judge.

even a tiny, little bit.

but stop it.

i've come to realize that most everyone is a good person.

most people don't strive to be bad

or mean

most of the time it's good people making somewhat bad choices.

we've all made mistakes.

we've all been judged for them.

everyone has a story.

a story of how they got where they are.

what made them the person they are today.

can't we just listen?

try.

please try.

sometimes i get these crazy gut feelings.

most of the time people look at me like i'm crazy.

once i saw this kid.

i didn't know him AT ALL.

i didn't know his name.

i knew nothing about him.

but i saw him and got the impression he was going through a hard time.

i thought he needed something.

a friend.

a hello.

someone to acknowledge him.

so i said hi.

i smiled.

i asked how he was.

i left from the encounter, not being at all satisfied.

it wasn't enough.

he needed more.

i told quite a few people how i was feeling.

"jasmine, you're thinking too much."

"you're fine, you're imagining it."

"you said hi, that's great! feel good about that!"

no. i didn't feel great.

i needed to do more.

so i got in my car

by myself

and drove off to figure out what more i could do for this kid i didn't know.

my friend and I got him some gifts.

something i felt like he could use.

we found out where he lived and dropped them off on his doorstep.

i felt great.

my feeling went away.

turns out,

this kid (who has a name, and i won't use it)

was suicidal.

i wasn't imagining this.

no one else paid attention.

everyone looked at me like i was

crazy.

thinking too much.

let me tell you.

i believe i made a difference to this boy.

i didn't judge him.

i've realized that people just want to be loved.

people just want to feel love.

everyone.

i challenge you to show a little more love.

be slower to judge.

quicker to listen.

quicker to help.

good people.

we're all good people.