so....tired...

it's six thirty a.m and i've been sitting on this couch for two hours now.
i woke up around four a.m. feeling like it was christmas morning.
...and then i realized my room smelled musty (you know that smell when you sleep with your door closed/windows shut)?
i tried to fall back asleep.....with no success.
so, here i am.
my eyes sting and i'm so tired, but my mind won't let me sleep.

it's wednesday, people! don't you know what THAT means?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

yours truly,
jasmine

cray cray over here

everyone's sick of hearing my whine about waiting for my mission call to arrive.....and i would be annoyed, too.
i AM annoyed of myself...but there's nothing i can do because i have to live with myself every day.
i keep trying to tune myself out, but it's not working.
i just keep annoying myself!

i'm annoyed because today was freaking veteran's day (which i thought was yesterday, due to an overwhelming amount of facebook status' about veterans....whom i love. and appreciate. and respect.) but apparently, it was today. the mail wasn't delivered...which means the postal service will be a day behind? which means that i may have to wait a day longer than planned to get my big envelope in the mail?!
let me tell you, i can't function like a normal human being under this pressure.
you should have seen me today.
i stayed in my jammies, in my bed, with my laptop, and googled everything relating to missions ALL DAY.
youtubing mission call openings, looking up all 347 missions that are currently open (thanks to my dad who feeds my weaknesses....he decided to email me a list of all missions.....he knew i would be obsessively stalking them already).
you can say it's been pretty pathetic.
it is pathetic.
it's not normal, i'm pretty sure?
and i'm sorry that nothing else is circulating through my head.
i'm sorry that nothing else is coming out of my mouth.
i'm sorry, okay!?
i wish there was a pill i could take to shut me up.
i wish there was something i could do to make me not think about it.
i wish there was a way i could transport mail FASTER.
i wish!!!!!!!
i'm going crazy. it's crazy that i will be sent somewhere in the world, just like that, to serve and live for a year and a half!
i have no idea where i'm going, and when i'll leave. would you be a little anxious, too?
probably not.




yours truly,
jasmine

so gross right now

i'm in my provo room right now.
laurel is sleeping.
i can't....because something smells disgusting...and i can't figure out what it is.
it's like must mixed with some weird smell that i can't quite put my finger on.
i've tried everything to fix it.
i hate it.
fix it?


pleeeease.


yours truly,
jasmine

if you call, i won't pick up

seeing as i'm now back to blogging.....i see it fitting to blog as i relax in my cozy bed (i often refer to it as my own little burrito). don't you ever just crave being in your bed, warm and snuggly? it's my guilty pleasure. ever since i quit my job.....all i want to do is take advantage of my relaxation time! and trust me...i do.

i'm currently sucking on a black licorice candy (because those are my favorite, you know)...that i discovered at the dollar store. the dollar store always has great finds! i don't know why people don't shop there more often...myself included.

anyways..i documented this great day for you:

aren't you a weeee bit jealous right now?

i would be.

(just sayin').

and have you been outside today?!

(just because i'm in my bed right now does NOT mean i haven't enjoyed the outdoors today. i walked from my bus to campus about four times today. i was outdoorsy, i say)!

it's stunning. and the leaves are the perfect amount of crunchy when you step on them.

it's a good day to be a jasmine.

oh. i almost forgot. i LOST my phone today somewhere in UVU? this is for reals this time! no false alarms here! it's gone. and i'm just hoping that some kind soul will feel the pressure to get it back to me. 

yours truly,

jasmine

in today's news

ummmm.....well where have i been?! why have i not blogged until this second?!!?!?!? who knows.

i have to take a second to apologize to myself. i'm so sorry, jasmine! i'm sorry you haven't blogged! i'm sorry that it has come to this! carry on, carry on.


i was sitting in class today (ten points for me......although i spent a good amount of time scrolling through/refreshing instagram.....i was there), and laurel was like....so why haven't you blogged?

i tell you, i don't know! i really don't.

let me just fill you in on some of my recent happenings:

my favorite place, yogurtland, just came out with a holiday menu today. they will be having twelve, new flavors during the months of november/december. this is huge news! gingerbread, cinnamon roll, boysenberry   cookie.....and did i mention gingerbread?!?!?!

#2. i have been working at this place called response marketing for the past....hmmmm...month maybe? and i dreaded every day of it. i quit yesterday...and i am now 100% happy. i realized i have enough money to financially support myself with the necessities (rent and occasionally food?). So i figured.....let's make it a great day and leave this place! yay. can i get a "yipppeeee?!" so now i'm always up for a good babysitting job, or anything? i'm your girl.

i have been reflecting a lot on my career path/major/etc. i've always wanted to be a teacher....and i do know that i'd love it. that's my current area of study.  however, i recently decided i think i'm going to change. i decided that i'd love to teach high school english.....and/or do something with the news industry.  ideally, i'd love to be a news reporter. i'd also love to write the stories/be involved with that. so i'm looking into journalism/public relations/that type of thing. i just have a passion for so many things, how do i choose?! i feel really great about my opportunities ahead, and i know whatever i do will be wonderful for me.

in other news: i'm serving a mission! this is the most exciting thing, yet! i cannot express how excited i am about this upcoming experience. i just get the chills thinking about it.  i have never been so sure of anything in my life. i know this is where i'm supposed to be. my papers are submitted, and i'm in the awkward limbo period of waiting for my call. i have no idea where i will go....anywhere will be a surprise to me.  i'm hoping with every fiber of my being that i will receive that big envelope next week (that's a hint for you to cross your fingers for me).

life is simply WONDERFUL. i think this stage of life is truly the greatest. i love everything. i am so happy.



yours TRULYYYYYYYYYYY

xoxoxoxo jasmine marie

loud....who, me?

i came to salt lake for the weekend

because my little sibs are growing up and playing/cheerleading in football games.

you can't miss that kind of a thing....you know?

so i'm here. 

and i forget how chaotic and loud my house is,

until i get here.

i forget that i get my loud-ness and craziness from my family.

how cool is that?!

i'm sleep deprived.

i seriously don't find time for sleep anymore.

i'm trying to get a normal sleeping schedule back into my life.

life is so great.

i'm just loving everything.

aren't you?

yours truly,

jasmine

i'm sorry!

heeeeeeeeeeello people.
does anyone still read this? probably not.

i'm here! i'm in provo! i've been here a week....and it's just great.
school is going great....and i LOVE my roommates.

today i bore my testimony in church.....no i'm not looking for accolades from you...
but let me just paint the picture for you:

it's my second week at church...i really don't know that many people.
i stand up to walk down the stairs (our sacrament meeting is in a lecture hall) to the podium...
and i FALL. like not even a slight trip....
i FALL. my leg was completely asleep....i could not feel it AT ALL.
so i scream.
without even realizing it.
and i look up and everyone is staring at me.
so i start word-vomitting and rambling about how my leg is asleep...sorry....i just..sorry.
wow.
who does that?!



so now everyone knows me as the girl that fell in church.
and i'm fine with it.


yours truly,
jasmine