superbowl, bro

happy sunday.

i debated not going to church today

i mean, i don't feel the greatest

and i didn't sleep much.

but i got out of bed and went.

ten points for me!

and i went all by myself,

because all my friends were too busy sleeping in.

another ten points for me!

tavin and ben came and sat by me and kept me entertained during the meeting.

i also had some play-doh

so of course i was mocked for a good hour.

ben came over after and listened to my random stories while i stuffed my face.

and he just watched

ahahah

remember how i debated getting ice cream for a good three hours yesterday??

listen to what he told me:

"why didn't you call me? i would have gotten you some."

.........seriously?

if i would have known that 24 hours ago....my life would have been perfect.

perfect.

but it's okay.

it's the thought that counts.

i guess the superbowl is on?

i couldn't care less.

sick as a pup

i'm sick as a dog pup.

sick as a puppy.

i've been in this freaking apartment for 24 hours straight.

minus eight minutes to walk to the clubhouse to pay rent.

i am dyyyyyyyyyying.

i'm so bored.

what i've been doing:

sleeping, hitting refresh on facebook, pinterest, watching tv episodes online, sleeping,

feeling sorry for myself, wallowing, sleeping, sniffling, texting, wondering why some people aren't responding so fast......i'm sick you know! text faster and keep me entertained!
 wanting ice cream, trying to figure out if it's worth getting in my car and going to buy ice cream, sleeping on the idea, waking up to the same idea.

i think i'm going to go get ice cream now.

confessions.

i'm just admiring these pretty little things ^^^^

right now.

how nice of someone to give them to me.

some people are so nice.

and SOME people are not so nice.

some people are really kind of rude.

i'm here for the weekend and brynne AND adam left to go home.

i miss them....

both.

there. i said it.

lessons in life.

today has been......

strange.

you know those days where you just feel like a dirty blob making your way from point A to point B?

maybe you've never felt like that.

but i did.

it's amazing what getting ready can do for my self-esteem.
when i shower and have pretty hair and makeup,
i feel great.
i feel like i can talk to ANYONE.
i feel like i can just radiate good vibes.

when i don't shower, i just feel gross.

today, i felt gross.

i was sleepy from studying so much last night.

i woke up early for creative arts with brynne.

we haven't gone for a couple days

and we decided to go today.

so we got on the bus and walked ALL the way across campus.

we got there about ten minutes late.

we walk into the huge concert hall

and it's dead SILENT.

the professor comes over the microphone and goes,

ummm...you two ladies that just walked in....

come get your scantrons.

you're late and next time i'm locking the doors at 9:30.

ummmm.

i seriously shot the meanest glare at brynne

WE DID NOT KNOW WE HAD A TEST.

how embarrassing.

how seriously embarrassing.

so we walked all the way to the front

and grabbed our scantrons.

i was freaking out because i didn't have a pencil.

so i wrote all my answers on a separate sheet of paper

then hurried and bubbled them in with brynne's pencil at the end.

we missed the first ten questions because he puts them up on a projector for the class,

and we were ten minutes late.

COOL.

good start to my day.

then i took my biology test.

which, surprisingly, i felt really good about.

went to my next class.

and then did this huge philosophy assignment for an hour and a half.

it was due at two thirty.

at two fifteen, i go to submit it online....

and i did the WRONG ASSIGNMENT.

i had just spent forever doing the wrong one.

no credit there.

so.

what can we learn from jazzy today?

a lot.





sadly, i had no photographer to capture what i looked like in the HUB today.

but i found this,
and i think it accurately portrays what i looked like to the hundreds of people that were lucky enough to be entertained by me and my frustrations today.

glycolysis

today was well spent.

STUDYING

all day.

study.

study groups.

study.

hang out with adam.

leave to study.

library.

grocery shopping (solo...that was weird)

dinner

study

gym

study.

if i don't get a good grade on this test tomorrow.....

so help me.

contemplation

well it's two in the afternoon.

my attention span today has not been the greatest. 

i can't seem to find any desire to focus on what my professors are telling me today.

i just don't seem to care about DNA, chromosomes, or fermentation.

i don't care AT ALL about the Stamp Acts, Patriot Acts, or Shay's Rebellion (sorry, i guess i'm a bad American).

i could not sleep for the life of me last night.

brynne sent me a text at 3:30

long after we had said our goodnights.

and she's like...um i can't sleep.

i was so happy she was struggling as much as me.

so she came and hung out in my bed 

and we had the greatest conversation

until 4:40 am

when we both got a whiff of tiredness and decided to take advantage of it

and sleep.

long story short, i didn't sleep much at all last night.

so now i'm in the Hub 

surrounded by people speaking different languages,

which is really annoying, because i'm in the mood to eavesdrop.

i guess this school has a little bit of diversity?

who knew.

i'm sitting in this little booth,

attempting to study philosophy.

at the moment i think i look like a hipster that belongs in a coffee shop sharing opinions on life 

with other hipster folk.

not that any of that is a bad thing,

it's just a change up of my normal appearance.

just reading some Plato.

now i just need a pipe to complete the overall vibe.

need some aloe vera

i went tanning for the first time in a VERY long time today.

and this is what happened:

if you can't tell...

i have random streaks of BURNED skin

and streaks of white skin.

it's really cute,

don't even worry.

it hurts a little bit.

but i act like it doesn't.

and i use the whole,

"well it will fade to a tan tomorrow."

honestly,

i don't think it will.

but guess what?

remember that boy i blogged about that i saw at wendy's?

and then again in a stadium full of people...right behind me?

well, guess who was sitting at the table across from me tonight at taco tuesday?

you guessed it.

the man that has the style of a god.

for some weird reason,

i'm confident we'll date.

i know i've said that about a million other people,

but i just feel it in my bones.

pray for me.

xo