i'm me.

sometimes i get annoyed.

i think in general,

i'm pretty good at playing things off and letting things roll off my back.

i'm good at joking, and taking jokes.

but sometimes,

after so long, i just don't find jokes funny anymore.

like sometimes i feel like people think i'm dumb because i'm not majoring in medicine, science, math, or law.

i didn't get a 30 on my ACT,

in fact, i didn't do nearly as well as i hoped i would.

i never had a 4.0 in high school,

even if i came sooooo close.

i didn't learn much in math, and i considered myself lucky to have male teachers that gave me good grades because i was nice to them, and never caused problems.

i wasn't a sterling scholar.

but you know what,

i think i'm pretty smart.

i know a lot about many things.

i know a lot about people.

i know how to make friends, and make others feel loved.

i know how to be respectful of others,

and i know how to appreciate people.

i am good at english.

i have always been in the top of my english classes,

and i know a lot about poetry.

i'm good at science.

i was offered many science scholarships,

although i don't have a passion for science.

i don't love it.

 why would i do something i don't love?

i love kids.

i know how to make children feel comfortable.

i want to make a difference in their lives.

i want to be with them every day, and inspire them to do

well

in life.

 

i think i'm smart.

i think i know a lot about myself.

a lot of people don't know that much about themselves,

but i do.

i'm smart when it comes to

ME.

sometimes i get annoyed when people underestimate my abilities or talents.

just because i like to joke around,

doesn't mean i always like to be considered "the joke."

these are my ramblings today.

mood: a little bugged. but feeling empowered.

i know that i have so much to offer this world.

and i will.

ummmmmmm

i met a guy a couple weeks ago.

he asked for my number,

but i wasn't interested so i gave him a fake phone number.

well,

i guess no number is truly fake,

because

I RAN INTO HIM TODAY.

and he was like......

"sooooooo i called you. the man on the phone didn't know who you were."

how awkward.



proud

i just took a math test

and i even knew some of the answers!

yay for school.

and sweat outfits.

the laundry room

i'm bored.

laundry takes forever.

and i don't like doing it very much.



black swan is not a fun movie

last night was the football game against Wyoming.

we won.

and it was freezing

but so fun.

we were like little kids waiting in line at disneyland for "big blue."

we left at fourth quarter because it was so bitter cold.

after, we made these gourmet brownies from pinterest

that i was so excited for.

and had movie night.

....i may or may not have ruined the top layer of the brownies.

don't ever put me in charge.

reese's cheesecake brownies.

the recipe can be found here.

today i'm feeling grateful for the opportunity i have to be here.

here at this point in my life.

here at this school.

here with these people.

just here on this earth, in general.

for the longest time, i didn't know why i felt so strongly about coming to this school.

i just knew it was right for me.

i knew it was where i was supposed to be.

i now know why.

it was to meet the people i have met.

it was to learn the things that i've learned.

i'm so fortunate to be living the life i live.

happy sunday.

xoxo

pa pa pa poker face.

THURSDAY:



i didn't blog yesterday,
because i was way too tired by the time i finished my math homework.
but we had a fun night of playing poker!
i'm such a........great.....poker player.

i'm actually really bad.

but i had help and ended up doing really well.

we went to "Rancheritos"

(yummy mexican restaurant)

at one in the morning.

had a great time eating spicy peppers and laughing at funny stories.

FRIDAY:

well....it's a friday night.

most people look forward to the weekend because they can go out and stay up late,

etc.

but my friends and i are all

EXHAUSTED.

i think we live a different kind of lifestyle.

we stay up sooooo late on weekdays.

and life just rolls on.

sure, sleeping patterns are thrown off, but you learn to work with it.

so we decided to go to a bonfire with the institute

in the mountains.

we assumed there would be lots of fun people there, because there are lots of people in institute, right?

well.

it took us two hours to get there.

we went to idaho.

we went up dirt roads.

we were extrememly lost in the rain.

finally, we found it.

the people there, were interesting.

but we had fun.

brynne and i did karaoke.

we sang full blast to Mulan's "Reflection."

we are so bad.

but we had a ball.

we made s'mores and ate chili.

it was a chill night with some......fun.....people.

and then we came back to 5A and debated going to sleep,

but decided on going to aj and ben's instead.

we had the most hilarious conversation all night.

i just love them.

and we're obsessed with otter pops.

we go through like...a box every other day.

i'm sleepy.

but i'll probably be up for quite some time.

don't you think college is a fun time?

uptight much?

i accidentally grated my roommate's cheese over my pasta.

i thought it was mine, and then i realized it wasn't.

so i went and apologized to her.

i told her to feel free to use mine.

i was sorry.

i opened the fridge later today to find her shelf of food gone.


she hid her food.

literally.....

i laughed.